Aging

            For a while now I have been thinking about the fact that I don't like to go out that much any more and when I do I like to make it count. I have cut down a tremendous amount on drinking and can't drink at the moment due to taking pain killers. So while all this is marinating in my mind, I ran across this quote:
Emma Rabbit: “The old lady who’s staring at the guppy can’t possibly be under sixty-five, and what does she think? That she looks like she did in her fifties? It’s tragic. When I turn fifty I hope I’ve aged with dignity. I’ll keep my head high, dress like a lady, and try not to cling to my youth as though I wasn’t finished with it. As if youth wasn’t already lived and completely, thoroughly explored. I’m not a stuffed animal who looks back. What has been, has been, and will never come back. I can’t understand those who go over and over all their old injustices, bitter about things that have happened, things that you can’t do anything about anyway.”
Yes, she said stuffed animal. This is from a book called 'Amberville'. I suggest you read it.
Anyway, what Emma says is true. This is a trend through out America, to keep on looking and acting young. Why? Why can't we just act our age and be glad we are still alive?? Because we are spoiled and everything is fast food. Disposable. If you're marriage sucks, get divorced. Don't fix it, throw it away. That's my opinion. I don't want to go out and stay out til 7am the next morning (I have done it, many times) anymore. I don't mind going out when there is a reason but coming home at a decent time. I don't want to be around women my age who are flirting with 'guppies' or 'cubs'. I don't want my husband flirting or flirted with by younger women. (He wouldn't by the way)
Anyway, that last sentence in Emma's quote is a killer. It makes perfect sense. The past is gone. Let it go, move on before you have lost the now and are stuck in a vicious cycle of what if. You can't go back, you can't change whats done and you only have now. Live it.